murf | cis female | not yet twenty | hellishly queer and damn proud of it.

queer dead french revolutionaries in abundance, with a major dash of punk and a decent helping of social justice blogging

enjoy, and always feel free to browse the pages and whatnot.

i do commissions, hence the donate button -- just fanfiction, because my art isn't yet good enough yet.

sidebar art by perry jeanenjolras

a little slug of lead


So I had this thought at work today. Imagine Grantaire at the barricade, cradling Gavroche’s body and just sobbing in devastation because he’s just had to watch this child he’s grown to love brutally killed in front of him. Enjolras approaches. Grantaire looks up, eyes red, and in a choked, broken voice says, “I am capable of feeling.”

18 Apr 14 · via · credit · 836 · reblog · Tags

18 Apr 14 · 2 · reblog · Tags

i want to be vegas lights music videos!brendon urie right now

like, suits and that flip thing

that would be cool

18 Apr 14 · 3 · reblog


a year ago today, nat spielbach went to see the us tour of les mis.

in the past year, nat has fallen down the rabbit hole, making friends and all that emotional sweet shit, and even though i’m a new friend of hers, i thought it would be super fucking cool if we had a group watch to relive the emotional agony!

(and idk talk about the grotesque and the sublime or whatever it is that we nerds do at parties god WE’RE ALL FUCKIN’ NERDS)

SO.  in less than an hour we’re gonna start the livestream!  if you wanna come, let me know; drop your skype in my inbox and i’ll letcha in on the party chat.

link is here to the tour video!  it’s a boot from a chicago performance, with jason forbach as enjolras and peter lockyer as jean valjean and andrew varela as javert.

(disclaimer plz remember to bootleg responsibly; we don’t want to upset casts /end disclaimer)

18 Apr 14 · 5 · reblog · Tags
Sorry to like barge on your ask, but i just remembered a quote from the book where Lecter is talking about his other session with Gumbs "lover" and what he said about Jame: "“Jame is not really gay, you know, it’s just something he picked up in jail. He’s not anything, really, just a sort of total lack that he wants to fill.” which makes my heart rip out, its not his fault that he tried to fit in somewhere :/ wish they'd put that in the film.

yeah it does rip my heart out too

i really wish someone could have saved jame gumb before jame gumb got to the point of homicide

[softly plods away]


Headcanon: Enjolras whispering to Grantaire as they’re about to be executed, “I’m not frightened anymore.”

18 Apr 14 · via · credit · 52 · reblog · Tags


my soul for courfeyrac with five sisters that he defends with his life

18 Apr 14 · via · credit · 72 · reblog · Tags
I said I would go to hell for you, but I didn’t expect you to leave me there.

a sentence or two (x)

holy. wow.

(via tupau)

18 Apr 14 · via · credit · 21514 · reblog · Tags


i need more musicals on my dash so if you blog



-les mis



-or any other musicals 

reblog this and i’ll follow you!

18 Apr 14 · via · credit · 343 · reblog · Tags
18 Apr 14 · via · credit · 567 · reblog · Tags


mean girls came out on april 30th 2004. the 10 year anniversary is this year and april 30th is a wednesday and if the whole world does not wear pink i’m moving to saturn

18 Apr 14 · via · credit · 443205 · reblog · Tags



ughgh ok we seriously need words to describe identities with matching romantic/sexual identities, as well as non-matching romantic/sexual identities

examples: homoromantic asexual (a non-matching identity) and homoromantic homosexual (a matching identity) 

I’m not imaginative or word-savvy enough to create names for these kinds of identities but uh yooo if any1 wants to it would be sooo appreciated 


perioriented - “matching” identity

varioriented - "non-matching" identity

18 Apr 14 · via · credit · 2506 · reblog · Tags
I wouldn’t necessarily mind people not knowing I’m gay, but I don’t like being thought of as straight — in the same way that I don’t mind people not knowing I’m a writer, but it would be awkward if they assumed I was an extreme skateboarder, because that’s so far removed from the reality of my life. But there is no blank slate where orientation is concerned; we are straight until proven otherwise. And if you’ve never seen how dramatically a conversation can be derailed by a casual admission of homosexuality, let me tell you, it gets awkward.

My Life as an Invisible Queer - Cosmopolitan (via feministlibrarian)

This speaks to me so much, and is probably the most important part, but let me tell you, I like this bit more:

What would be great, I think, is if I could hire some kind of old-timey town crier to precede me into any room I enter, shouting “Lesbian coming! Lesbian coming this way!” and possibly ringing some kind of bell. Then everyone would already know before our interaction commenced, and they could be pleasant or horrible as the spirit moved them, but at least we’d be communicating from a place of honesty and I wouldn’t have to worry about whether I’ll inadvertently reveal myself.

(via aceadmiral)

18 Apr 14 · via · credit · 6715 · reblog · Tags


The official fae documents said Lesgle, zir boss always spelled it L’aigle, but to friends, zie was called Bossuet, and zie was well on zir way to becoming the most…well-known of all the eventide fairies.

At one and a quarter inch, zie was small for zir age, but zie created more than zir fair share of trouble. Although Bossuet was excellent at bringing illumination to the world, zie had a tendency to, well, mess around with the humans; zie would flicker lights on an off, dim a room until it was completely dark, change the colors of a light just slightly, that sort of thing. Zie also had the rather unfortunate ability to get stuck in strange places. 

One evening, Bossuet was zipping through the bushes, quick as zie could to avoid a bulldog that zie had accidentally pissed off, when zir wing snagged on a branch and before zie knew it, zie was completely entangled.

It took until the sun was rising for Bossuet to be found by a dew fairy by the name of Joly. He was still wiping the sleep from his eyes, but he untangled zir from the bush and bandaged zir wing up. They ended up talking under the bush for hours, until Joly’s boss found them both napping on the grass, hands twisted together. 


Bossuet / Photographer 

18 Apr 14 · via · credit · 80 · reblog · Tags
Hi! I love your blog, it's great. I was wondering if you could help me out with tips on the Les Mis stage door! Also, if you've sat in the rear mezz what is it like up there?


How are you today? I’m going to post this publicly because who knows, someone else may benefit!

For the stage door, depending on what day you go, you’re going to want to hurry out there quickly if you want to get up close. Around the door they put up the metal barriers so you don’t crowd the actors, but that sometimes makes it hard to get to them. As long as they say they’re doing SD, they will all be willing to sign stuff and take pictures, or even stop and chat if they’re not too busy. However, whether they’re going to sign or not, they all leave that way, so if they turn down signing things and say they have to go right away, be respectful of that. They have lives too. Also remember- always compliment their performance, even if you didn’t like it. Never be rude to an actor after they did the show for you (sometimes for the second time that day!)

As for how to get there, you have three options. If you’re sitting house left, there are doors that open up on the oops tote side of the theatre. Those will dump you out by the SD, so you’re in luck. If you’re sitting house right, go out through the lobby and onto the street. A right hand turn will mean you cut through the parking lot/alley that comes up almost immediately. Go through there, turn right, and head to the crowd of people around the door that says “Imperial Stage Door”. That’s the fastest way.

And for the rear mezz- it’s actually very nice. Not as great as front mezz or orchestra, obviously. But still very very good. Try to get first few rows of I through. I’ve been in row B of the rear mezz, both right center and left center. Both are great options.

Enjoy, hope this helps!

also, a tip:

don’t let the shrieking idina menzel and anthony rapp fanpeople get to you.

even if they’re in the les mis stage door line.

when i went on my birthday there was a contingent of people who had also come to my show, but ultimately seemed more interested in what was going on next door at the if/then stage door than was going on at ours.  

it got to the point toward the end of our stage door that they were freaking out because apparently anthony rapp was coming out of the if/then stage doors.

i heard one feminine-sounding voice yell that they should start up a chant, and i just kind of snapped, having been up since 3:45 that morning and running on merely an hour’s worth of sleep and whatever cheap food and caffeine i could shove down my throat over the course of the day, and being furious at how rude they were being,


the whole line went quiet and i did not hear those peoples’ voices again.

please, my friend, do not be like those people.  i’m sure you are not, but just make a conscious effort not to, okay?

18 Apr 14 · via · credit · 13 · reblog · Tags